hape

This is suggestion from Broto, that I should write something regarding my hape(s) (read: mobile phone).

My first HP was Nokia 8210. It was so cute, even I still like it best until now. Unfortunately its technology cannot be upgraded =(
I got this HP when I was in grade 3 Junior High School. At that time I promised my dad, if he bought me this HP, I would not ask him to change that HP for a new one no matter what.

Of course that was only "promise"....
I fell in love with Nokia 8250, almost the same model, but it got blue light instead of the normal yellow. But because I AM a good child, I tried to keep my promise. So, I tricked my mom to change her HP to that 8250 hahaha... Although it wasn't really mine, still I got it in my house LOL!

Then I fell in love again with Nokia 6510. The light was also blue, but the blue was softer. I am just wondering now, was that only because of the lights that I wanted to change my HP?? kkk... Anyway, I managed to get my parents bought this HP for me although my mom hates this HP very much. She called that HP as "stone". I didn't mind... I still got it... kkk...

After some time, technology has grown fastly. The new HPs got more and more modern. Well, I didn't have any intention to change mine yet, but then my mom was told by her friend about this Nokia 6600 then she bought it. And what's strange was that suddenly it was me who used that HP instead of my mom...

My brother was so into film-making that one day he went on a competition and he won the 3rd prize, it was Nokia 6600 Black edition. But at that time his HP was better than that Black 6600 so I decided to use it.

Then the era of CDMA came and suddenly I had this Nokia 6225 with me, accompanying the Black 6600.

But then a tragedy came to me. I was cooking my breakfast in the kitchen (I was still in Uni, I lived in a boarding house), and when I came back to my room I saw that the door was open. My heart beat faster when I got into my room to find that both my HPs were gone!

A few days after that accident, I got package from my mom, guesss what? My old 6510!! yay!! She sent me her old CDMA 6585 as well...

A few months after that, maybe my parents felt pity on me, they bought me a new Motorola V3x which I liked just because of the model. Together with the 6585, they accompanied me til "the end"...

The "the end" was the time I had to left my country to start a new journey of my life. My problem with my lovely V3x was that I cannot use its alarm function for some reason. Alarm is so important for me, all these times I used the 6585's function for alarm. So, just 2 weeks before I left my country, my parents bought me a Nokia E51. This is enough for me who is a little bit "gaptek" hahaha...

After a few months I lived in the new country, my mom reported to me that someone had stolen my lovely V3x and the 6585!! How dare he!! Well, my mom said, thank God that we are not the thief... True tho... Poor creature that he has to steal...

I am quite satisfied with my E51, but yeah what can I say, temptation came to me in form of iPhone 3Gs hahaha... Someday, someday... =p
(update: I got an iPhone 3Gs in March 2010 because E51 kept catching virus for some reason and I still love it until now and don't feel like changing phone yet)

i just love Snoopy ^^

And I Thank You, Lord

"
she was the person whose smile on her face is that i want to see the most . . .
she was the person whose presence is that i want in my wedding day the most . . .
she was the person whom i want to be beside when she breathed the very last breath the most . . .
but i got "no"s for the answers, and i thank You, Lord for that answer . . .
i thank You, Lord, for giving her to me for 22 years of my life . . .
i thank You, Lord, for providing her such a happier, better place by Your side . . .
i thank You, Lord, because You are the all-knowing-God who knows best for everyone . . .
i thank You, Lord . . .
"

My beloved grandma was born in August 01, 1921, and she passed away on July 16, 2009. It was just less than 3 weeks before she reached 88.

That day I didn't see my mom online on MSN, I thought she just went to the other office. In the afternoon I sent sms to her regarding some stuff. She replied late in the evening, with a short notice in the bottom, saying that my grandma has passed away that morning, peacefully in her sleep. I was blank.

I replied to my mom, saying that God knows what's best. But I did cry. I asked God to keep her until my wedding day... well, at least I want to be there when she's gone! I even personally asked her to wait for me, for 2 years only... But why?? Didn't she love me enough, like I do?

I needed some time to fix up my feelings. I didn't get angry. I was just wondering, is she happy now? Because this is what she wanted. Not what I want, though. If that is what she wanted, she got it, and she is happy, what the hell am I doing protesting??

Like what I said to my mom, God knows what's best. I don't know now, I don't understand why. What I can do is thank Him. Give thanks IN every thing, not FOR every thing. There is always something to be thanked if you really search. I found it, so I made that poem for her...

Fireflies

This is the title of a song by Owl City, which has been my fav since few days ago...

December 20, 2009
It was a PERFECT day for me! I went to my friend's house to get some movies to fill in my new lovely Seagate FreeAgent 1.5 TB, ate some home-made Korean food (thanks to Wendy), played and had fun with my friends...
So start from now on, I think I can enjoy my holiday more watching movies saved in my external...

December 23, 2009
I thought today would be another perfect day for me. I just updated my Service Pack so I can use MSN normally again, then I was planning to watch some movies when I broke my external hard disk because I am so careless.....again!! It was just a week old in my hand, I had transferred all my data, including my precious memories in form of pictures there!
I was totally blank, didn't know what to do, since the store where I bought my external is closed during Christmas time, and all, yea...ALL of my resources is stored there! I could be crazy if I didn't listen to some musics, so I decided to download Fireflies by Owl City...

December 24, 2009
Christmas Eve but I didn't really felt that this is Christmas... Maybe because I didn't get much activities as I usually get in Indo, like getting involved in church activities whatever they are, attend Christmas Eve service, etc.
Tonight I decided to make new memories, so I went out with Cindy to see the Christmas LightUp. Only a few but not bad for a new memory...
Tomorrow we would have gathering in our house and I would make my special macaroni, so I started preparing, accompanied by Fireflies all the time...

December 25, 2009
I almost cried this morning in the Christmas service because I really didn't feel like Christmas! There was something so wrong inside I knew...
We had gathering in our house in the evening, everybody brought/cooked food/drink, even I baked my special macaroni. It didn't turn out the way I wanted, maybe because I didn't use all the same ingredients/spices I usually use. We played Monopoly, we ate, we talked and joked around, with my Fireflies still playing upstairs...
After everybody gone home, I started crying and I didn't know why!

December 26, 2009
I went to DFO with Steve & Wendy, and met Jun there. I wasn't really in the mood for shopping, but remember, I got NOTHING to do... So I just came along... I got bad hair day, too! And something in my mind didn't want to go away...
I thought I could be crazy too if I only listen to that Fireflies song! So I downloaded Art of Love by Guy Sebastian & Jordin Sparks. But still I just kept it and didn't play it for some reason...

December 27, 2009
Yeah I thought I knew why I felt this way all the time... It's because I only played that Fireflies all the time! With that mellow tune, goodbye thing, it just made me thought about goodbye to all of my precious pictures! I'm crazy I'm crazy......
So it was time to play Art of Love... Time to move on! And at night, Jun sent me Suddenly I See by KT Tunstall to add up my playlist. So now I played 3 songs!

And suddenly I just felt better and ready to let go....... LOL!

p.s. wanna listen to this song? =p

If Only

If only life was easy
Will I spread my wings and go wherever I want?

If only life doesn't require a hard work
Will I still fight this much?

If only life meant to be free
Will I do whatever I want to "enjoy" it?

If only life had no limitation
Will I still value it?

Teach me, Lord, to understand
'Cause I am totally blind

Masterpiece

Just thinking...

There is someone who is so eager to have something, he tried so hard to do all he can to reach what he wants... But in the other hand, there is someone else who has the thing that first person wants but he doesn't even want it!

Why don't God just give the first person what he wants and let the second person not have it, because it doesn't matter for him if he doesn't have it....?

::
God sees in us a masterpiece
That one day will be done;
His Spirit works throughout our lives
To make us like His Son.
—Sper-
::

If you're guessing, yes, this is about me... Wanting something so much and trying hard when I see someone else who has already had it takes it for granted. Is this fair...? Perhaps I should see it from God's point of view.

Maybe...
He wants me to depend on Him more, no matter what_
He thinks what I want is not the best for me_
He has another plan for me_
He wants me to keep trying and never give up_
He wants me to learn something_

But still, it is so hard.......

Somebody's Me

::
You, do you remember me, like I remember you?
Do you spend your life going back in your mind to that time?
Cause I, I walk the streets alone, I hate bein' on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else

[Chorus]
Somebody wants you, somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath, without you it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That somebody's me
That somebody's me

How, how could we go wrong?
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

[Chorus]

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory

You, when you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

[Chorus]
::

A very touching song from one of my fav singers, Enrique Iglesias...
This is the song that I want to be sung by my somebody kkk...

The Way I Do

::
Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

-Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do-

Your touch, your skin
Can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight
I need you like the ocean needs the tide

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

-Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do-

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look at what you've done

-Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do-

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

I love you
I need you
I want you
..the way I do
[x2]
::

Well, today's Valentine's day, while I am totally single AND happy...
Just want to sing this beautiful song from Marcos Hernandez for someone who is still on his way to get to me, whoever you are =)

drEam JourNey - someday . . . . . . . . .

I always love Europe!
So my plan is to save a lot of money so that someday I can travel as long as I want, all around Europe on the way that I want it to be...

My plan is...:
1. Ireland - oh I fell in love with this country since I watched my favorite movie, p.s. I Love You, so let it be my first stop
2. Great Britain - there's something about this country that attracts me so much but I can't even tell
3. France - thru the Channel Tunnel for sure!
4. Spain
5. Portugal
6. Italy - ohh I LOVE this country, especially the foods and the artistic buildings
7. Greece
8. Switzerland
9. Germany
10. Belgium
11. Netherlands - I must see tulip fields with my own eyes!
12. Norway
13. Sweden
14. Finland
15. Russia

See, can you imagine how much money I need to save?
Neglecting the fact that I'm still jobless today hahhaaa.....
But someday.... yeah, someday . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I have faith in this hoho =p