smilesmilesmilesmilesmile, PLEASE!!

I hate my old school.

Their system is just crappy. Even when I wanted to get out from there, it was very hard to do. I actually have finished the course and I needed Academic Transcript to enter university. But I got some issues with my Academic Transcript. The teacher had fixed it up but the grade had not been out in my Transcript. After giving more than 24 hours of my patience, I decided to go there to see what the problem was. I went to the Administration hub and they told me that they had not received the result from the teacher, that was why they would not do anything about my Transcript. They asked me to find the teacher and talk to her, or email her if I couldn't find her that day. This was very ridiculous! I explained that I even have got a Letter of Completion, but how come they still got problem with my Transcript. I would not be given one if there was a problem. And  I was wondering what these people are working for actually. It was not my job to chase the teacher! I came there to get my problem fixed, but all they did was asking me to sort it out by myself! They did not even make an effort to see if the teacher was there that day or not. They just do not do internal communication. I was not happy at all because obviously there was something missing in these people's job description. But because they insisted that they could not do anything (they spoke to me with raised voice, so I was kind of yelling back to them, sorry I didn't mean to), I didn't have any choice but to go find the teacher. Luckily the teacher was teaching that day and she was very helpful. She told me that she had really fixed this problem out and she did not know what happened. She was willing to do it over again realising that this was very important to me (It was! My class in uni would start on Monday and that day was Friday, btw). Some other teachers helped me out, too, because they realised there would be some other problems if I did everything by myself because I was only a student. To make a long story short, finally I got my Transcript. Then I left that school and do not have any intention to go back. Goodbye!

I went to the university to process my enrollment. Firstly, I told the Student Centre people that I needed to make a timetable to attend class on Monday and I needed a student card, too. They said that I needed to go enroll myself online because I missed the orientation that week, which was not because of my fault. After I get myself enrolled then they can give me the student card. The people there suggested me to go to the Faculty to see if they could help me to enroll. There, I tried to access my account, but I found out that the system could not log me on. So the people there suggested me to go to the IT Help Desk and ask the people there to reset my password. I went there and the people there were confused because normally I needed a student card in order for them to help me. But after I explained my situation and they made some phone calls, they finally gave me a new password. The problem was not over because although I got a new password, I couldn't fully access the account. So I went back to the Help Desk and they made some other phone calls then told me to go to the International Student Service to see if they could help me. It was 13 minutes before the office closed. I came there and explained my situation to one person. She made a phone call and then she found out what my problem was. I could not fully access my account because I have just been registered that day as the result of submitting Transcript so late, which was not my fault, was it?? So anyway, I have to wait for at least 24 hours for the system to recognise me.

So, I went to uni for nothing. But what is strange is that I didn't feel annoyed at all. They "ping-pong"-ed me, they made me walk here and there in the "dark" (remember, I missed the orientation and this was my first time going there), and finally I found out that there was nothing I could do. But really, I feel fine with all of this. And why....?? Because these people in uni have great customer service skills! They are friendly, they communicate to each other, too. And the most importantly is............ they SMILE!!

Smile really manipulates mood. Not only your own mood, but also the mood of people you give the smile to. "Smile, and the world will smile back to you".
Soooo, smile, please....!! Whatever your mood is, smile really helps you to feel better =) =) =) =) =)

JumP

If I do not believe in God, I will not be here anymore today.

Sometimes I feel my condition is out of my control, and I start to think that it is so useless to live. It's just my faith that keeps me alive (read: not to try suicide). To be honest, my faith is not that strong. I have my ups and downs. When I am really down I even think, does God hate me that much? It is hard to keep believing in Him. But not to believe in Him is even harder. It requires more faith not to believe in God than to believe.

I believe in His promise, that there will be a day.....
with no more tears,
with no more pain,
with no more fears.....

So I'm hanging on here, standing strong, and being stronger.

If you want to be happy.... ACCEPT!

[ . . . . .
Hey, hey
Did you ever think
There might be another way
To just feel better
Just feel better about today

Oh no
If you never want to have
To turn and go away
You might feel better
Might feel better if you stay

-Bridge-
Yeah, yeah
I bet you haven't heard a word I've said
Yeah, yeah
If you've had enough of all your tryin'
Just give up the state of mind you're in

-Chorus-
If you want to be somebody else
If you're tired of fighting battles with yourself
If you want to be somebody else
Change your mind
Change your mind

Hey, hey
Have you ever danced in the rain
Or thanked the sun
Just for shining- just for shining
Or the sea?

Oh no
Take it all in
The world's a show
And yeah, you look much better
Look much better when you glow

Bridge - Chorus

Hey, hey
What ya say
We both go and seize the day
'Cause what's your hurry
What's your hurry anyway

Bridge - Chorus
. . . . . ]

"Change Your Mind" by Sister Hazel, a soundtrack from Bedazzled, one of my favorite movies =)

I love the movie not only because it is fun to watch, but also because it teaches me a lesson for life which is..... if you want to be happy, then you have to accept. I got similar e-mail from ko Ciprat long time ago about The Art of Being Well by Dr. Drauzio Varella, and one of them is the same thing... you gotta accept, dude!
He says : "They who do not accept (themselves) become envious, jealous, imitators, ultra-competitive, and destructive. Be accepted, accept that you are accepted, accept the criticisms. It is wisdom, good sense, and therapy."

accept who you are,
accept what you have,
accept your condition,
accept things that happen in your life

Well, I'm still learning, too. I was complaining a lot about my situation, then one day I gave so much advice about being happy to one of my best friends (Broto) when I realised that that advice was actually meant for me, too! Isn't that funny? =p

By the way, I got the idea to write this after having a pretty "heavy" conversation with Wendy... LOL~

Psalms 19

1
The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of His hands.
2
Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they display knowledge.
3
There is no speech or language where their voice is not heard.
4
Their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world.
...
7
The law of the Lord is perfect, reviving the soul.
The statutes of the Lord are trustworthy, making wise the simple.
8
The percepts of the Lord are right, giving joy to the heart.
The commands of the Lord are radiant, giving light to the eyes.
9
The fear of the Lord is pure, enduring forever.
The ordinance of the Lord are sure and altogether righteous.
10
They are more precious than gold, than much pure gold;
they are sweeter than honey, than honey from the comb.
11
By them is your servant warned; in keeping them great reward.
...

will you let me be me?

~
I'm a grown up woman but a girl again
It's been like this since I can remember when
Your questioning and answering
You're always talking to me like I can't relate
When all I want to do is to communicate
You were meant to be someone else

I look at the pictures of me and you, we're smiling
Tell me what happened to the times when
We understood each other, yeah

//Reff :
All I need is a little bit of space to breathe
And a little bit of freedom to be who I want to be
Let me be me
Love means learning to let me go and spread my wings
You let me grow and live life you gotta let me be
Let me be me

You try to teach me lessons not to suffocate
Always setting goals that I don't wanna make
And I'm tired of it, sick and tired of it
And it feels just like we're on a one way street
It's only half where we gotta meet, we gotta make it back

I look at the pictures of me and you, we're smiling
Tell me what happened to the times when
We understood each other, yeah

//Reff

I look at the pictures of me and you, we're smiling
What happened to the times when
We understood each other

//Reff

YOU GOTTA LET ME BE ME!

[please . . . . . .]
~

I am trapped in the situation I don't want to be, but I can't do anything about it. Only you can change this, could you please let me be me?

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Just want to share the most hilarious joke in my opinion =p

I found this picture on Bakul's compie, couldn't stop laughing just by looking at this picture. She didn't understand why I think this is very funny. Well, I don't know either... It's just different humour "taste" hehe...

* fireworks *

I love watching fireworks, the concept is the same with starry sky at night... I just love seeing something sparking in that black big screen...

Tonight was New Year's Eve and I just stayed at home. I didn't feel like going out, even though to watch fireworks. It must be so crowded. I could hear the sound of the fireworks going from my room but couldn't see it.

Just some reference of fireworks if you are interested....

How amazing technology is, just a few hours after the real event and the videos have been published...

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