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If I do not believe in God, I will not be here anymore today.

Sometimes I feel my condition is out of my control, and I start to think that it is so useless to live. It's just my faith that keeps me alive (read: not to try suicide). To be honest, my faith is not that strong. I have my ups and downs. When I am really down I even think, does God hate me that much? It is hard to keep believing in Him. But not to believe in Him is even harder. It requires more faith not to believe in God than to believe.

I believe in His promise, that there will be a day.....
with no more tears,
with no more pain,
with no more fears.....

So I'm hanging on here, standing strong, and being stronger.