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If I do not believe in God, I will not be here anymore today.

Sometimes I feel my condition is out of my control, and I start to think that it is so useless to live. It's just my faith that keeps me alive (read: not to try suicide). To be honest, my faith is not that strong. I have my ups and downs. When I am really down I even think, does God hate me that much? It is hard to keep believing in Him. But not to believe in Him is even harder. It requires more faith not to believe in God than to believe.

I believe in His promise, that there will be a day.....
with no more tears,
with no more pain,
with no more fears.....

So I'm hanging on here, standing strong, and being stronger.

If you want to be happy.... ACCEPT!

[ . . . . .
Hey, hey
Did you ever think
There might be another way
To just feel better
Just feel better about today

Oh no
If you never want to have
To turn and go away
You might feel better
Might feel better if you stay

-Bridge-
Yeah, yeah
I bet you haven't heard a word I've said
Yeah, yeah
If you've had enough of all your tryin'
Just give up the state of mind you're in

-Chorus-
If you want to be somebody else
If you're tired of fighting battles with yourself
If you want to be somebody else
Change your mind
Change your mind

Hey, hey
Have you ever danced in the rain
Or thanked the sun
Just for shining- just for shining
Or the sea?

Oh no
Take it all in
The world's a show
And yeah, you look much better
Look much better when you glow

Bridge - Chorus

Hey, hey
What ya say
We both go and seize the day
'Cause what's your hurry
What's your hurry anyway

Bridge - Chorus
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"Change Your Mind" by Sister Hazel, a soundtrack from Bedazzled, one of my favorite movies =)

I love the movie not only because it is fun to watch, but also because it teaches me a lesson for life which is..... if you want to be happy, then you have to accept. I got similar e-mail from ko Ciprat long time ago about The Art of Being Well by Dr. Drauzio Varella, and one of them is the same thing... you gotta accept, dude!
He says : "They who do not accept (themselves) become envious, jealous, imitators, ultra-competitive, and destructive. Be accepted, accept that you are accepted, accept the criticisms. It is wisdom, good sense, and therapy."

accept who you are,
accept what you have,
accept your condition,
accept things that happen in your life

Well, I'm still learning, too. I was complaining a lot about my situation, then one day I gave so much advice about being happy to one of my best friends (Broto) when I realised that that advice was actually meant for me, too! Isn't that funny? =p

By the way, I got the idea to write this after having a pretty "heavy" conversation with Wendy... LOL~